Sunday, 26 January 2014

#14: Meeting note and Taman Layang - Layang

Dear memory,

I am supposed to have a meeting with Genting group on Monday morning at 9.30am, but I have not prepared the meeting note yet!

To summarize, the meeting note should have the background of the company and DIA profile, financial performance, and most importantly issues surrounding them!

Ok in two hours time Im gonna finish it. Because at 5pm  I have to reward myself by going to Taman Layang-Layang with the housemates! (apekah. kerja tak siap dah fikir nak berjalan -,-')

Ape da esok meeting Pengarah and manager masuk tapi tak siap meeting note lagi, boleh kena bunuh ni.

Dah dah go go siapkann!






p/s: benda simple je bro, why take so long?

#13: Azam dan Doa

Dear Memory,


I have always wanted to write something about this . Especially when we are still at the beginning of the year.

Azam dan/atau doa.

Semakin menginjak dewasa, aku semakin mengenali hakikat sebuah doa.

Bagiku, jika kau benar-benar menginginkan sesuatu, kau pasti berusaha untuk mendapatkannya.

Nah, ayat di atas sudah cukup menerangkan secara ringkas apa yang ingin aku perkatakan,

Hari ini kita sering beranggapan jika mahu sesuatu, kita harus berdoa.

Walhal apa yang sepatutnya kita katakan adalah, jika kau mahukan sesuatu, kau akan dapatkannya!


Ah sudah. Apeke bendanye ni, tak faham. Jadi tak perlu berdoa?


Mari aku bawa kau lihat dari sudut yang berbeza.

Doa dan keinginan kedua duanya bergerak seiring. Dan boleh jadi juga perkara yang sama.

Sifirnya mudah. 

Jika kau tidak berdoa untuk apa yang kau inginkan, ertinya sama sahaja seperti kau tak benar-benar menginginkan sesuatu yang kau hajatkan.

Usah fikir doa itu terlalu rigid pada doa lepas solat sahaja. Doa itu merangkumi seluruh kehidupan sehari hari.

Apa yang kau benar-benar hajatkan dalam hati, itulah doa. Sebab kau akan fokus pada apa yg kau hajatkan, jadi secara tanpa kau sedari kaki, tangan dan tenaga kau akan bergerak ke arah itu.


Akhirnya kau akan capai apa yang kau nak.

Tapi tentulah takdir Allah memainkan peranan. 

Aku cuma bicarakan soal sebahagian besar daripada itu ditentukan oleh keinginan yang kuat dari dirimu sendiri.

Jadi, kalau kau dapati kau sendiri jarang berdoa, tidak mahu spend masa sedikit pun untuk berdoa. Itu tandanya, bukan sahaja kau tidak lagi anggap Allah sebagai tempat bergantung harap. Tapi sebenarnya kau juga tidak betul-betul ada satu keinginan yang kuat.

Jadi usah berangan, hajatkanlah setinggi mana pun, tetapi hakikatnya engkau sendiri tidak menginginkannya, jika kau sendiri tidak berdoa dan berusaha ke arah itu.



p/s: Tak berdoa= unconsciously tak anggap Allah tempat bergantung and tiada keinginan terhadap sesuatu

#12: Far-fetched

Dear Memory,

In the past, I had once wished for this one thing. I said to myself, 

"In 5 years time I'm gonna come back here and look for you*."

At that very time, it felt so right and I was so firm about my decision. And I believe I'm gonna make it god willing, if nothing stood in my way.

Now 5 years had passed, here I am, nothing stood in my way but yet nothing happened the way I wished for.

I came back here looking for you. But today the way I looked at it, it was so different now.

What change? 

Did I change? 

Or did you?

Or maybe it was a combination and mix?


Now it seems like you are  far-fetched. It felt so different and so wrong today than it did 5 years ago. 


So what do I do now, Memory?

It is just too far fetched.




p/s: *purposely put 'you' in here as a general reference to specific something :)

Saturday, 25 January 2014

#11: Hipokrit



"Aku tak nak hipokrit. Aku nak jadi diri aku sendiri."



Apakah itu hipokrit?



a person who claims or pretends to have certain beliefs about what is right but who behaves in a way that disagrees with those beliefs



Jadinya, awak taknak hipokrit ke awak memang dah ter-hipokrit ni?

Atau bagaimana?



Friday, 24 January 2014

#10: Ramblings

Mereka tahu kan apa yang mereka impi-impikan tentang ciri suami atau isteri yang sempurna itu hanya khayalan dan angan-angan semata? Do they? 

Pandai masak, reti jadi imam, cantik, handsome, reti berkebun, suka budak budak, itu dan ini.

Apa mereka masih belum berpijak lagi pada bumi realiti?

Ingat. Kau bukan tuhan yang mampu menentukan dengan siapa kau berakhir.

Sekali dengan si dia yang tiada lansung ciri ciri itu baru kau tahu.

Aku harap kau tidak cipta kecewa engkau sendiri.





p/s: pernah jadi 'mereka'. Tapi hidup mengajar aku berpijak dibumi nyata.

Thursday, 23 January 2014

#9: Post Futsal

Cramped kaki bro. Cramped.

Punyalah sepanjang hidup tak pernah cramped kaki time main bola, malam tadi alih alih cramped pulak.

Itu makan di kalau dah lama tak bersenam. Mujurlah dah at the end of the game baru cramped, dapat juga merasa nikmat bermain hampir satu jam tadi.

Malam tadi full attendance lah kira. Court turf yang agak besar dari saiz normal futsal tu kira boleh penuh la. Maklumlah, dah lama tak main. Bila sekali sekala baru boleh full macam tadi.

Daripada 14 orang main tadi, berapa orang sangat la yang kenal nye,  dua tiga orang je kot. Tapi belasah lah main juga.

Satu perkara aku dapati kurang memuaskan main dengan dorang adalah dorang ni main terlalu kiasu sangat. Ater serius benor pun mainnyer. Awok main nak suke suke je . Bukan nak bawak ke mana, main petang petang sudeh. Happy happy sudeh. Ini terjert sini sana mintak bola. Dah dibagi tak score pulak tu. haha.


 Ramai juga yang yang tak boleh ngam style main  tadi. Aku kalau ada sorang dua teammate yang ngam and ada chemistry style main baru boleh pergi jauh. Baru boleh perform. Malangnya tadi sorang pun takde. heheh. Main jelah sayed ape yang mampu, itu pun mujur ada geng boleh buat main, kalau tak melagut lah kau sorang, tak dapat nak exercise benda feveret.

So lepas ni weekly futsal setiap khamis malam, depending pada yang confirm attendence. Lebih 10 orang baru jalan. Kalau tak memang akan cancel sebab for sure akan pancit.



p/s: Yeay esok dah Jumaat. Looking forward to cuti CNY next week. Nak balik kampung! Rindu tiada tertahan lagi

Wednesday, 22 January 2014

#8 : Futsal

Dear memory,

My working life routine felt so dull. Wake up in the morning - go to work  - feeling stressed - go back - eat - sleep. and the cycle repeats itself.

Today we were supposed to have a futsal game at Lanai Kijang but apparently someone else has booked the court. So futsal got cancelled. Haih =.='

Punyalah semangat dari malam semalam beli kasut futsal second hand kat bundle depan surau Taman Melati tu just untuk main hari ni. Last last cancel pulak. heh. In fact, semangat datang office harini is driven by futsal kot.

But its okaylah, at least tomorrow I got another chance to play futsal with another group. This group memang kitorang dah main weekly sejak sebelum bulan puasa tahun lepas lagi. Tapi tiba tiba stop sebab lepas raya harga court futsal dekat tempat kitorang selalu main Segambut tu tiba tiba naik mendadak. memang boikot lah jawabnya, sebab orang yg komited nak main pun tak konsisten. So ada ocassion whereby ramai tak datang we have to pay for really expensive punya price.

Kalau yang petang tadi tu group sekali dengan budak budak baru kat office tu, yang umur lebih kurang sebaya. Malam esok pulak geng abang abang yang umur pun 30-an. Dah kahwin dan ada anak. Tapi masih berjiwa futsal dorang ni. Hah tapi yang menariknya geng main esok ni termasuklah juga si pelakon Redza Minhat itu. Aku tak pernah tahu pasal beliau kalau bukan kawan aku yang bagitau and kalau bukan pasal filem yang dilakonkannya itu tahun lepas.






I think what makes life dull during working life is because I no longer get to do thing that I am really passionate about.

Futsal is one example.

I forgot how often I played futsal during my student life. Every evening after class? Yeah. It was like a candle that brightened up the day. 

Fe'el nya aku ni kalau nak exercise mesti kena play games yang aku suka. Futsal or Bolasepak memang tempat pertama lah di hati. Badminton pun la paling koman. Tapi jenis sukan yang just sendiri sendiri macam jogging tu adalah paling aku tak boleh terima. Aiyo tak boleh hidup. Neither it interesting nor it fulfilling.

Nak main futsal pun bukan nya kita nak bersungguh sangat macam main tournament pun, just main petang petang. Biasa biasa je. Tapi at least, dia fulfilling, kita boleh bermain dengan segala teknik yang kita ada. aiceh. hehe :p

Dan yang paling penting fulfilling. Mesti rasa happy lepas main, lepas segala stress. Thats the main purpose. Kalau macam jogging tu memang lah sihat, tapi level stress tu sama je tak hilang. silap silap bertambah sebab emo sangat buat exercise benda yang tak best, boleh? haha

Ni risau ni berat badan dah naik ke arah bapak bapak punya level ni. Dah tak maintain remaja la kalau macam tu. Mane taknye datang ofis, makan, duduk depan komputer sepanjang hari, makan, balik, makan letih terus tidur. Exercise nye entah ke mana. -_-'

Nikmat sihat ni kena jaga bro.

Okay memory thats all for tonight, nak survey cerita Aku Ada Wali sat sebelum tidoq. Nak tengok chara tak chara citer dia.

Daa~

Monday, 20 January 2014

#7: Memory

 Dear Memory, (instead of dear diary)

The very first thing that went into my mind when I got to work in the morning today was that why didn't I go balik kampung last weekend (since the weekend was a 3-day weekend)

Haih, full of regret betul pagi tadi.

The idea is that for all this while I kept wishing for weekends to be long enough (more than just Saturday and Sunday) so that I could go back often. But when there was opportunity to do so, there I blew it.

What was I thinking? I just realised this because tetiba rasa the weekend was so long and I ain't do no nothing. Might as well I spend time with le family.

Tapi mengapa yang emo sangat ni awak? haha. yang dah lepas tu lepas lah. Ada 10 hari lagi sebelum cuti CNY not that long pun. Maybe considering CNY dah dekat kot that's why decided not to go back. Hmm whatever lah.

Or was it because of the Monday blues? It affected me all day. Ini lah akibat cuti lama lama sangat ni. Ha seronok sangat blame benda lain ni kan. haha

Dah dah. Cukuplah di situ. Sebenarnya hari ini positif je dari pagi tadi sampai sekarang. Memang profesional habislah hari ni. Saja je dekat sini nak throw all this. Lets keep it as a little secret ya Memory?

Ok ini apa kes Memory ni?

Ha cerita dia nak bagi nama sikit kat blog ni I call it Memory boleh? konon konon orang selalu pakai tu 'dear diary'  kan, so kite tukar kasi lain sikit dear Memory. Lol sungguh.  So that when I feel bored or alone I could talk to him here. Mihihi

Woi whats up with you bro??

I know, I know deep down in my heart I admitted benda benda macam ni not necessary pun. Girlish gilaa bak hang! hang ingat aku suka ka? tapi tak kisah lah nak buat jugak. Dah la nama pun 'Memory' neither is it cute nor it is  handsome tapi biaq pi la. 



memory- gambaq hiasan



So now, if for everyone else's, memory means (according to google) : 

1) the faculty by which the mind stores and remembers information.
2) something remembered from the past.

For me now it has a third meaning, which is this blog.

Why Memory? Pretty much because of the very meaning of that word jugak kot.

I write based on what I know and remember. And it has got to be from my experience in the past or post-event thing.
So that what was written down here could be a memory for me in the future jugak kot. More or less macam tu lah 

You know one thing about human brain or mind, it could only store so much memories and for so long.

So that we could remember things in the past so that one day we could reminisce over the happy moments that we had throughout our life.

And at the same time, we are flawed in such a way that we could not remember EVERYthing. And our memory also has a limited capacity. We could forget things. Just so that we could forget the bad times that we faced and move on with life.

Both of them are blessings to us . All Praise belong to Allah!

Ok lah that's all for tonight kot. Mari terus hadapi hidup yang mencabar ini. Akar dan pangkal kena teguh dahulu untuk menampung sesuatu.

Meh nak tidoq dah, Sayonaraa~




p/s: day by day and it gets lonelier. haih :/


#6: Mission accomplished!

The clock on the wall stroke 2.04 am when I started typing this down.

That means I have already completed my homework that I am supposed to submit tomorrow.

See? In the previous post I promised to complete it by 2pm on Sunday, apparently it ended up 12 hours later at 2 am the next day. How great.

And to add to that, tomorrow Im gonna have to go to work early in the morning and what am I doing at this hour not yet going to bed? How perfect my first day of the week with the Monday blues all over me on top of that.

Well at least, I did finish the work. Had I not promised to myself in the previous post, no one knows whats gonna happen. Based on theory called "previous experience" I might probably end up not doing nothing at all. Lol

Alhamdulillah siap juga. Mari teruskan kehidupan dan hadapi apa jua cabaran bak kata Sir Asrul time Gala Dinner. Heh

Dah. Meh baca doa tidur dan tidur. Mati sementara ni.

Bye bye ! Good night ;)

Sunday, 19 January 2014

#5: Of one-page report on companies

As promised yesterday, today I'm gonna spend the whole day finishing up the outstanding office work.

I created this post here so that there will be a second post at the end of today saying that I have completed the job. Heh, hopefully.

Let me share with you what kind of task that I'm going to do today.

Basically, it is an analysis on this two big company namely Genting and Axiata group.







I am supposed to finish a one-page write-up consisting of the two's corporate updates as at end of quarter 3 2013. On top of that, I also have to prepare a statistical analysis on their investment abroad, like the amount of remittance, location of investment and what type of investment they are doing.

Apart from the above, the department from where I am coming (being Foreign Exchange Admin dept) is more particular on the funding of those investment. Why?

Because Ringgit is not supposed to be brought outside the border of Malaysia to fund those investment.
It is allowed for certain amount beyond which it requires permission from BNM.

Such restrictions is to avoid the speculative activities on MYR which may destabilize the value of ringgit and distort Malaysia balance of payment (which is the very reason for the formation of this department in the first place, to avoid those)

Most of the info on the above is ready, what left for me to do is to rearrange all those info in such a way that makes those infos looks nice in the eyes of the bosses.

Alright then, I shall continue my work and finish it by this afternoon say 2.00 pm?

Lets see. Adios!

#4: Putrajaya

Petang tadi aku ke Putrajaya.

Ada kenduri kahwin.

Alang- alang sudah sampai di sana, aku pun mengambil peluang meronda- ronda  Putrajaya, especially kawasan Masjid Putra dan bangunan Perdana tu.

Cantik kawasan ni.

Damai.

Angin bertiup sepoi-sepoi bahasa.

Bangunan Perdana? - Bangunan Pentadbiran kerajaan Malaysia. Ala-ala Whitehouse kalau kat US gittew

Masjid Putra


Kali terakhir aku kemari adalah sekitar zaman sekolah menengah.

Putrajaya kini semakin rancak membangun. Bangunan yang indah-indah.

Reka bentuk bangunan dan landskap yang menawan hati.

Boleh lah jalan- jalan honeymoon kat sini nanti.

Eh.

=.=' *sigh


sesuai untuk istirehat dan ambil angin

Havoc jugakla macam-macam aktiviti ada di dataran luar masjid tu



I think I had a wonderful time with my friends just now. My Saturday is well-spent.

Tomorrow is Sunday. Tinggal satu hari sahaja lagi sebelum kembali rutin bekerja macam biasa. Harus plan dan execute sebaik mugkin.

Laundry-check. Iron- check. Homework- belum check. =.='

Ugh, ada report yang perlu submit hari Isnin.  Moga boleh manfaatkan esok untuk siapkan.

Ok lah, I wanna get some sleep right now. Good nightt people! ;)

#3: "Fastaqim Kama Umirta"

 Have you ever heard a conversation between football fans that goes:

" You know what, The Gunner is awesomee! They are on top of the table this season!"

but then his friend replied:

"To be on top of the table sure is awesome, but hey The Red Devils is the most awesomest! They played well and, on top of that, they maintained their position in top three of the table in every seasonn! And it is the only club that championed the EPL 20 times! That is Legendd---- wait for it-------- daryy!! Yeah #GGMU!"

Eh.

Forgive the overflowing excitement and bias-ness. #GGMU

Wait, what was the point again?

Yeah, the point here is, to win and be at the top sure is good and overwhelming. But will it be any good if it is only a one-off thing? Sure Arsenal is now faantastic and awesome and all. But what makes MU such a legendary club? (forgive me for using this example, couldn't think of any at the moment :p) 

Because they maintained being constantly fantastic and wonderful!

That traits set the team different and extraordinary from the others.

Well, that reminds me to my alma mater's motto. It was a verse from Al-Quran: 


"So remain on a right course as you have been commanded, [you] and those who have turned back with you [to Allah ], and do not transgress. Indeed, He is Seeing of what you do" [11:112]

 No kidding. This is no ordinary school. The motto doesn't sound  "Cemerlang, Gemilang, Terbilang" of that sort but THIS instead! A verse from Al Quran!

One thing about being good or do good deeds for that matter, it sure is easy for anyone to do it one-off. But to maintain doing it for the rest of your life? phew.  bukan senang komer weh.

And this includes avoid doing munkar as well. You improves today, you should continue improving tomorrow, the next day until forever. Not stopped and going backwards again. Thats not how it is supposed to be.

And until now, I admitted even after years I had left that school, I could hardly come close to what was transpired by this verse. "Remain on a right course as you have been commanded".

There is no easy way doing this. It needs a lot of courage and inner strength. Mujahadah.




p/s: I pray for myself to be given strength to commit to do this and to be able to be Istiqamah one day. And pray alone is not enough :)  


Friday, 17 January 2014

#2 : Video:The video that converted many to Islam


Stumbled upon this video in FB. Please do watch, and I believe that this kind of video would increase the level of Iman in our hearts.

Post by What Me Thinks.

#1: Untuk yang Sedang Sakit

Tahajjud. 
untuk orang yang lemah macam aku,
Tahajjud. 
untuk hati-hati yang sedang sakit.
macam aku.
Allahu.
Tahajjudlah ubat yang perlu kau cari sebenarnya.